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Pathetic Disgrace
04:10
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This time I once prayed a prayer,
I tried but no one was there.
It defined all that I am.
I tried to steal me some grace,
but it blew up in my face.
No one around gave a damn.
Since then I struggled through life,
Deep in the shit and the strife.
I attempted to maintain.
But every once in a while,
When I feel close to a smile,
It all just comes back again.
I'm a pathetic disgrace.
I'm a pathetic disgrace.
It's written right on my face.
It's what's been given to me.
My heart was frozen in ice,
back when I became this Christ.
I died with no one to save.
So I've been trying to rise,
Content to just stay alive
For one more meaningless day.
Just tell me when will it end,
I might have needed a friend,
When there was nobody there.
I couldn't find one that cared.
When the victims were spared,
They disappeared into nowhere.
I descended down to a low.
Looking at pleasures that I'd never know.
Came back with this disease -
The disease that became me.
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2. |
In The Basement
04:51
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Down in the basement, where it's damp and it's dim.
Spiders and insects give an aura of grim.
Went down the stairs, so young, so naive.
We did away with all our shame and fig leaves.
We put to use all that nature provides.
Lost all our reason to conceal or to hide.
This wasn't love, a scientific inquest.
Satisfy curiosity so repressed.
In the basement, we were safe from the light.
Everyone said it was wrong, but I know it was right.
In the basement, dark secret to hold.
Growing up fast amid the spiders and mold.
Mom and dad were poisoned with their God and religion.
They never knew what happened right underneath their kitchen.
The devil got into us, one sin after another.
Would have had us exorcized if word got to your mother.
But this made us better than we ever were back then,
And if I had the chance, I'd do the same thing again.
Say it was never true, say it like you regret.
You know damn well the basement you will never forget.
In the basement, learned the meaning of life.
In the basement, all the picking was ripe.
In the basement, where I conquered new land.
I went there a child and came back a man.
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3. |
Tragic Bus
05:02
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Waiting on the bus that morning,
nothing but a 15 year old kid.
Never to receive a warning.
Getting on would be the worst thing I did.
Thought I was ready to face the day.
Door closes, couldn't run away.
Getting ready to face the day.
Couldn't prepare for what was coming my way.
Tragic bus, going for a ride.
Never made it to the other side.
Tragic bus, going for a ride.
I was destroyed, I was crucified.
Tragic bus, I went for a ride, went for a ride
Tragic bus, shouldn't take that ride, (no) shouldn't take that ride.
Typical dark and chilly morning,
In the usual way the bus arrived.
Brown vinyl did not admonish
The trauma I would not survive.
Those words were waiting for me.
Words that would cut and score me.
Your noose was hanging for me.
The noose that choked and tore me.
Was left a corpse, nobody smelled it.
Flies came around, no one would tell it.
Soul vaporized, I didn't have to sell it.
Instilled with pain, I wish I never felt it.
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4. |
Halls of Isolation
04:25
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Beeping alarm, time to throw up, look in the mirror.
Each day the same, and my image gets clearer.
I don't eat, and I don't sleep, I know I'm failing.
My arm is tight against the wood and they're nailing.
I have a car, I'm free to ride, but going nowhere.
I look at them, and they glance back to throw their death stare.
The only thing I learned is how to hate myself.
Wishing I could be anyone else.
Every day, I walk these halls of isolation.
Inside of me, the silent scream of desperation.
Might be the only one who's walked here alone.
This desolation is all I've ever known.
This is why I'm wearing black now every day,
To reflect indifference and the hatred sent my way.
No, I will not fit in to your shallow, stupid world,
But why'd it have to mean that I should never have a girl?
I take the books out from the bag and throw them at the wall,
Then I summoned a pestilence to rise and kill them all.
Unless you walk these halls, you will never understand.
It is more than anyone could ever withstand.
This was the school of suffering in silence,
And every name had to be crossed off of my list.
No heart left, every piece of it broken.
Not even once was my name ever spoken.
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5. |
Don't Take Me There
04:54
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From the bottom of the stairs, you cannot tell why I kicked you down.
Maybe it was an over-reaction to the way that you pushed me around.
Free to believe in what they deceive, you can preen your angel wings.
I will forever turn from the light, I will seek out darker things.
Light a candle and say a prayer.
I pray you never try to take me there.
My knee might bleed, but it will not bend.
Saw nothing matters in the bitter end.
My hands make fists, but they do not fold.
I won't believe the greatest lie ever told.
At the bottom of the stairs, has God now forsaken you?
An accidental pseudo-martyr, or reality window to view?
My faith dissolved along with the girl, the angel was taken away.
The last time I ever prayed, led to my becoming the prey.
Nothing's good, and nothing's fair.
Don't you ever try to take me there.
This delusion is great beyond measure.
It is a plain as the nose on your face.
There's nothing sacred, nothing that you must treasure.
I step in shit, not a sacred place.
All the ancients that never existed.
Must think we're just as stupid as we look.
And you think with how much I've been beaten
I'd put my trust in some holy book?
I awakened to the lie of forever.
Took 16 years to get halfway here.
The empty flames of eternal torment
Were extinguished when I lost all fear.
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6. |
Reality Is Dead
04:25
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Faces float around like heads that were severed.
New scenes don't appear until I pull the lever.
Unsure of how long I've been lying here.
Ripples through the air pass and disappear.
Night eternal falls, daylight never comes,
'Till the rising of at least one million suns.
Only thing my tongue can manage to say:
"Reality is dead", existence melted away.
"Reality is dead", that's what I think I might have said.
It echoed through my brain, flew out, and swirled around my head.
"Reality is dead", that's what I think I might have said.
Swimming through the wave of transparent crystal liquid red.
Mind and body now have crystallized,
Turned to dust and rock and hardened in my eyes.
Looking at the clock, can't comprehend the time.
Seems that it has slowed and stopped on a dime.
Get down on the floor, crawl on my knees and hands.
If you haven't been there, will not understand.
Forgot about my life, about how everything shattered.
Surviving to tomorrow was the only thing that mattered.
Reality is completely dead.
Can't tell if this is localized or widespread.
Reality is completely dead.
Everything vanished. empty space left instead.
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Comfort in the Mourning
04:57
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Keep picking at the scabs,
Open the wounds to relive the pain.
Can't ever let it heal,
Digging deeper till I hit the vein.
Try so hard to recall,
What my mind has worked so hard to repress.
What once was dead and gone,
Mental zombies that distress, so grotesque.
Comfort comes in the mourning,
Amid the hateful scorning.
In the distress and grief,
Comes curious relief.
Can't help but wonder why,
If not but left to die,
Would mournings such as this,
Forsake my heart to bliss?
These ancient injuries,
Ripped open and left to bleed.
Maintains the taste for blood,
And breaks the monotony.
Hearts beating in a jar,
I will never give them back.
The lifeblood of the art,
Life for the spirit of attack.
In the mourning, I find myself.
In the mourning, I'm someplace else.
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8. |
Private Eye
03:49
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I need to find a detective to investigate,
what is the source of this inception of hate.
Ever since I was a child, I've been a target of contempt.
It seems they can't wait to smash the dreams that I've dreamt.
Collect all the clues, look through the magnifying lens.
Find out how I've been stained with a mark that can't be cleansed.
Get to the truth, life is too short for the lies.
The evidence will show I need a private eye.
Need to get myself a private eye,
To discover the reasons why.
I was hated, dragged along the ground.
Investigate until the truth is found.
Hire an investigator, sniff out the trail,
The whys and whos of everyone who tried to make me fail.
Look at my scars, the proof, and probable cause.
See the display that highlights all of my flaws.
I knew that they meant business when they chose to attack,
And you can see the holes left from the knives in my back.
I want pictures through the windows, telescopes set up to spy,
To see what's going on, I need a private eye.
To find out why, I need a private eye.
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9. |
One Click Away
05:05
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Just a facsimile among a million more.
Don't know just how I got here, not too sure.
It takes a click, we can delete one another.
Reduce ourselves to just a face beside a number.
It is the way, we must do this all the same.
Building our lives, have to play the clicking game.
Defined existence in two hundred or less,
A portal window to impress and assess.
You click on me, then you click away.
Wanted to click back, nothing much to say.
How many clicks does it really take,
To keep myself from clicking a mistake?
Searching criteria to determinate,
Who's at the top, who has no hope, and who can wait.
Only displaying our finest side.
Everyone has something that they prefer to hide.
If you found out exactly who I really was,
All of the damage that instilled my many flaws,
You'd stay away and I know that I would too,
If I knew the awful truth about you.
It's hard to find what you're looking for,
In a pool, grey, and deep as the sea.
First you search, then you keep searching more,
for someone almost as fucked up as me.
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10. |
Taking Me Places
02:55
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Inhale
Exhale
Inhale
Exhale
Swallow it down
Swallow it down
Swallow it down
Swallow it down
Swallow it down
Swallow it down
Swallow it down
Swallow it down
Head exploding - mind is blown
Taking me places that I've never known.
Can't stop thinking but I don't know.
Taking me places didn't know I could go.
I found
an escape
When I need
to escape.
Take me away
Take me away
Take me away
Take me away
Take me away
Take me away
Take me away
Take me away
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11. |
Gone So Far
05:47
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No idea where I'll be tomorrow,
Since today might last ten billion years.
You've been fading fast inside a memory.
I am floating up away from here.
I can go where nobody can find me,
Hope where dreams are shown on BrainTV.
I could be a year before returning.
Realized I don't need reality.
Gone so far, I don't care who loves or hates me.
Found a way to make this disappear.
I've been taking something for the pain.
High above, cause it sure beats sitting here.
I've been to the wilderness without you,
Then I built a city on the floor.
I noticed the ringing and the knocking,
But didn't care to look behind the door.
I can talk but words convey no meaning.
Babel tongue dry, twisted. No sense made.
I'll need my umbrella, tear drops falling.
Hope you will not rain on my parade.
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12. |
Melancholia
06:39
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The lies, the insults, the pain,
The reason I had to go insane.
The wicked one sliced my jugular vein.
Left to bleed out cold in the rain.
Ambivalent maiden brutalizes expendable renegade,
Laying the foundation for poor choices that were made.
I played the victim who could never get away,
Like the melancholic enchantress leading impeccant souls sinfully astray.
Coffee and couches found me lying underneath,
Grabbing for anything and everything I could reach.
Hours became days, and days became weeks.
Curse seemed to be lifted, but I did not dare to speak.
Everything I had I gave,
And I transformed into the slave.
It didn't take too many days.
You started looking to get away.
Winter descended, nothing was safe from the freeze,
Sometimes was forced to beg, forced to say please.
You were as cold inside as the ice on the trees.
Nothing left for me to do but get on my knees.
The thaw did come and the flames grew hotter.
I was burning alive, searching in vain for water.
This time you were determined to destroy me completely,
To drain, crush, flatten, vaporize, erase, and delete me.
Still the tears were in my eyes,
Oblivious to all of your lies.
Gave myself for execution,
Vague hope of some resolution.
Nothing but murder on your mind,
To this fact I remained blind.
Punished for being myself,
Almost became someone else.
Why did I give in to this?
You were never worth a shit!
Sacrificed myself for this.
Never should have lost my shit!
I wish I had just let you go,
When I think of the pain I'd never know.
Hope for nothing but the worst for you.
I'm quite sure you would wish the worst for me too.
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13. |
Judas Face
05:36
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It's so revolting, thinking what they grew up to be,
So wrapped up in themselves, I guess they just can't see.
Used to hold in high esteem before the day they changed.
Put on their Judas face, turned into something strange.
I know you should never change a person if you could -
Learned that lesson better than anyone ever should.
But I'd rip those Judas masks off if I had the chance,
Ugly and pitiful, I would burn them with a glance.
They'll turn their back on you, leave you float in space.
Say they'll be there for you, but that's never the case.
Only thinking of themselves, they betray with an embrace.
Lies plainly visible, written on their Judas face.
Without each other, might not be around today.
Just cannot understand why they turn and walk away.
Never did anything to warrant this betrayal.
Left without empathy, unwilling or unable,
To comprehend their ways. It's lacking of all sense.
Why it came down to this, there is no just defense.
Suppose they're satisfied, traded in for gold and silver.
Slap on their Judas face, and sell me down the river.
Now their true face is on.
Saw it when they were gone.
So quick do they betray.
Judas face they will display.
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14. |
Staples
03:49
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I found a shiny thing,
A thing I need to keep.
I've lost many things before
Cause what you sow is what you reap.
This time I will take some steps
To ensure it stays in sight.
I'll see that it does not escape
Under cover in the black of night.
I'll staple us together,
so you cannot escape.
I'll staple us together,
to keep everything safe.
She didn't cry as much as I thought,
I promised it wouldn't hurt.
She'll be attached at the hip
As I worm though all this dirt.
The staples and the tape secure,
What might otherwise get away.
And when I die, she'll stay attached,
cause the skin fuses that way.
And when we're stapled together
You will start to feel my pain.
And when we're stapled together.
You will see all of my shame.
When we're stapled together,
You'll be there like nobody else.
Cause when we're stapled together,
You become part of myself.
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15. |
I'm a Bore
04:36
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I wake up each day and I feel almost dead.
Years of misery and pain weigh heavy down on my head.
In this meaningless void, nothing less than a bore.
I've survived thirty years, how many more can I endure?
I've reached a point, a daily struggle to survive.
Lost interest in the process when the goal is just arrive.
A chance of tomorrow, a likelihood of today.
Only thing certain everything remaining grey.
I'm a bore, halfway dead,
A blank space for a head.
I am sickly and sad
Lost almost all that I had
I'm a bore and a creep
I didn't sow much to reap.
I'm growing tired and old
Produced, paid for, and sold.
Speaking loudly enough but no one fears what I say.
Can't cry over the laughter and the joy they display.
I appear but I'm not here in every sense of the word.
Lost in imagination trivial and absurd.
Divorced from the world, disengaged and detatched.
Despondent apathy that is unrivaled, unmatched.
Uncapable of feeling, frozen solid inside.
Boring, unimportant, I have no where to hide.
Sleeping in the waste of it all.
Jumped from the ledge, I was destined to fall.
Suffered these years, now I'm flat on the ground.
You don't wanna hear it, so just turn down the sound.
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Thomas Christ Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
Hailing from Pittsburgh PA, Thomas Christ is an industrial rock/electro rock solo project that began in 1999. With 18 albums (and counting), Thomas Christ continues to deliver emotionally and politically charged rock and electronic music that draws inspiration from a wide variety of genres an aggressive, industrial edge that must be heard to be appreciated. ... more
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