Melancholia

from Pathetic Disgrace by Thomas Christ

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The lies, the insults, the pain,
The reason I had to go insane.
The wicked one sliced my jugular vein.
Left to bleed out cold in the rain.

Ambivalent maiden brutalizes expendable renegade,
Laying the foundation for poor choices that were made.
I played the victim who could never get away,
Like the melancholic enchantress leading impeccant souls sinfully astray.
Coffee and couches found me lying underneath,
Grabbing for anything and everything I could reach.
Hours became days, and days became weeks.
Curse seemed to be lifted, but I did not dare to speak.

Everything I had I gave,
And I transformed into the slave.
It didn't take too many days.
You started looking to get away.

Winter descended, nothing was safe from the freeze,
Sometimes was forced to beg, forced to say please.
You were as cold inside as the ice on the trees.
Nothing left for me to do but get on my knees.
The thaw did come and the flames grew hotter.
I was burning alive, searching in vain for water.
This time you were determined to destroy me completely,
To drain, crush, flatten, vaporize, erase, and delete me.

Still the tears were in my eyes,
Oblivious to all of your lies.
Gave myself for execution,
Vague hope of some resolution.

Nothing but murder on your mind,
To this fact I remained blind.
Punished for being myself,
Almost became someone else.

Why did I give in to this?
You were never worth a shit!
Sacrificed myself for this.
Never should have lost my shit!

I wish I had just let you go,
When I think of the pain I'd never know.
Hope for nothing but the worst for you.
I'm quite sure you would wish the worst for me too.

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from Pathetic Disgrace, released February 11, 2015
Thomas Christ - all instruments, vocals, production

Recorded in 2014

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Thomas Christ Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania

Hailing from Pittsburgh PA, Thomas Christ is an industrial rock/electro rock solo project that began in 1999. With 18 albums (and counting), Thomas Christ continues to deliver emotionally and politically charged rock and electronic music that draws inspiration from a wide variety of genres an aggressive, industrial edge that must be heard to be appreciated. ... more

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